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I'm not sure really where to start so I'll start with what's on my mind right now I've been e-mailing and talking to a girl on msn.She seemed nice at first but last night she said she loved me we haven't even met in person and we've only been talking for a few days.It threw me off now I'm not sure if I want anything to do with her.Shes in Africa right now taking care of her Mom I offered for her to stay here when her Mom gets better but now I don't see it happening I'm not sure what to do being a nice person I don't want to hurt her.I didn't tell her where I lived.On the downside what if this is my last chance at finding someone? I don't want to be alone for the rest of my life, all my Life I wanted to fall in love with someone who liked me for who I am.but a few days is way to soon for me I could easily block her from my msn and not have to deal with her but a part of me is unsure.I've blocked a ton of people before I really hate having feelings some times.Rping has been so dead for me lately I just don't want to play Garou or Vampire their just not fun for me I'm tired of sitting on mirc.I really need to find better things to do so I don't get disappointed with mirc any more.I've been really blah during winter but I feel like this every winter.I've just been playing my Ps3 a lot and watching full metal alchemist brotherhood oh and the Vampire diaries.I'm really enjoying them both and could watch them all day long.I need to start doing face painting again it cheers me up.I'm going swimming on Friday I love being in the pool its so relaxing.Well I sent her a short e-mail I hope it was the right thing to do I still feel a little bad for breaking it off I really hope this isn't my last chance at finding someone.It's not easy being single I always see people holding hands and smiling it makes me sad inside I really hope I'll have that one day.

I'm not really sure what to write today.I didn't do much of anything today Well I did some laundry up and played fallout 3.I've been playing it alot lately and watching Heroes rping has been so dead I remember when I couldn't wait to get home to play.I really miss those days so much but now mirc is a ghost town I hope it will go back to the way it used to be.I'm looking forward to working at the fair its alot of walking but on my break I go and watch a show or look around.I also love watching people's faces get painted.I think its something everyone should get to enjoy tomorrow I'm going to swimming lessons again I find the water so relaxing.Sat should be a really fun day to I get to go and watch the Wwe with my sister and nephew.I grew up watching wresting with my Dad I've always enjoyed watching it I know its fake but that doesn't matter to me.I try to keep looking forward to good things.Some days it's hard and with no one to really talk to on mirc or msn or yahoo I feel a bit lonely.Well That's all I can think of to post today I think I'll play some more fall out 3 or watch a movie.


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The reason I didn't post for the longest time was because I was going throw a lot of crap and I didn't want to post about it here.things are a lot better for me I'm living on my own now my Mom and me had to move out of our old place I still see her a lot she lives 30 mins away from me.I've been here just over a year now I like it so far its really quiet here but I keep busy I have a job now delivering flyers and i still see my friends on the weekends.I finally got a ps3 which I love so much my first one died on me my amazing Sister Kelly lent me money to get a new one.I play online but not as much as I used to.I get to see my nieces a lot more their finally back home I missed them so much.I still do face painting its something I'll always enjoy my one niece Morgan loves to have her face painted to it makes me smile.She always wants to be a cat.I reallly haven't been rping a lot any more I'm just really tired of the drama and getting disappointed with games so now if no body talks or rps with in an hour I leave mirc I'm not going to sit there and waste my time any more.I really only want to play ling I enjoy it and look forward to playing when i can.I have 2 cats now who always want to be petted and loved and of course I still have my spider.I'm not sure what else to talk about I'm doing ok I mostly just been watching heroes and playing my ps3 since I don't have cable I don't miss it.I'm working at the fair this year again I have better hours this year so I wont be as beat when I get home.I enjoy working at the fair and the money is good.Well that's all I can think of to write take care my Lj Friends.

Ok lets see what should I type..Nothing really exciting has happened in the last month to me it's been pretty much the same.Let's see I got my hair cut finally now that winter is gone and don't need the extra hair on my head to keep warm.I saw my nieces on Easter Sunday it was just great to see them i wish they still lived in town.I haven't really been rping at all I just don't see the point any more so I've been finding other things to do like going to friends,face painting and playing games.I remember when I looked forward to rping and everyone looked out for each other like family I miss that feeling.I found out that one of my friends who I haven't talk in awhile is getting married Congrats Liz I'm happy for you.I'm also been thinking of my Big Sis a lot and sending her good thoughts I miss her every time she's on Yahoo I hope I'll be able to chat with her soon.I'm starting swimming Lessons again on Wednesday I'm looking forward to them its always very relaxing.Oh I almost forgot my Friend Jenna wants to do face painting with me again it was a lot of fun the last time.I'll make sure we take pics so I can share them with people.I'm hopefully going to Canada's wonderland this year its been awhile since I've been there.I did some more faces their under the link if you want to look.Well that's all I can think of to type take care all.

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Well I thought since its been a month I would post something just in case people missed me.I've just been feeling kind of down and invisible lately so I've been keeping to myself.I was at Jim's all March Break just hanging out and playing games it was one of the best weeks I've had in awhile I really needed it.I baby sat my nieces the Thursday before the break it was so great spending time with them.I spoiled them a little to by letting them stay up and play video games with me.The only thing I wasn't to happy with is my brother in law wanted me to stay and watch them during the march break with out asking me he just assumed I had nothing better to do.I'm sorry but I'm nobody's slave and I won't put up with it at all I was promised a ride home the next day not a week later.I really haven't been rping at all on mirc I just can't seem to get into it any more If nobody is chatting with me I don't stay on long at all theirs no point.One of the games in play in died it sucks I enjoy rping in the game its really to bad.I lost everything on my computer again I got mostly everything back now except my mirc logs.They were like memories to me I always reread them they made me smile.I have no idea what happened I turned my computer on and had a HDD error so I tried to fix it with out opening my computer.Of course that didn't work so I tried using a different hard drive but that didn't work so I put the old drive back in and did the thing I was trying not to do and formatted it.So Yeah it works now I hate formatting so much I'm going to update or get a better computer when I have the money.a few nice things have happened to me in the last little while I found a new bed which I needed badly and a padded chair to sit on oh and I got my X-box modded for free so I've been playing it a lot more.I'm thinking of sighing up again for swimming lessons again I really enjoyed them and I miss being in the water its so relaxing.I did two faces to they were requests from people on the Cats from I'm on.both faces turned out ok.I will always love face painting you get to look like something else for a bit its wearable art.Well my tv show is on take care

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So I thought I would post something in hopes that it will help get rid of my blahness.well I lost everything on my computer all of my pics,music and book marks.I used a xp recovery cd thinking it would get back all of my missing files...Well it did that but I lost everything on my C drive.The hardest thing to get back will be my music I'm never touching anything on my computer ever again.I had a fun weekend at Jim's again I needed it winter is dragging me down.On Wed I did two faces they turned out really good I'm happy with them I'll post the links after I'm done writing.I do have some good news my Moms sister is doing much better the tumors are shrinking my Mom is really happy about it.Things are good here I just haven't been able to fall asleep at night its not all of the time I slept good on Sunday.Well that's all I can think of to type take care.


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I'm sitting here not doing much and decided to update some.I had a bit of a busy week last week I had the flu on Monday it was only 24 hours then I spent Tuesday recovering.Wed I went and did some running around downtown and helped my sister set up her new bed.I missed my one show but I got to watch Lost.Thursday I was so tired that I slept late and totally forgot I had to take out the trash I didn't remember till later on there was alot to take out.Friday till Sunday I went over to Jim's and played games late it was fun I do that every weekend.I found a new mattress on Sat I really needed a new bed I wasn't sleeping good on my old broken bed.They only problem with staying late at Jim's is that I don't do face painting so I'm got to find another day to do it on I'm going to try for Wed.I need to start doing face painting again.I've done 2 in the last little while the links are at the bottom.Today I got to spend time with my nieces it was so great to see them again.They were here early I took a nap after they went home I was tired.I'm thinking of getting a new wig from Ena I was going to last month but then my xbox died on me she offered to make me a full costume so I'm think I'm going to start getting it bit by bit.Then I'll be able to wear it to a con or a costume party.I'm worried about my Big Sis I have been since I read her Lj I really hope things get better for her.Well that's all I can think of to type take care all.

P.s for my Big Sis how I got started doing face painting.it started on Halloween when I went out with Jim and his kids they were all dressing up and I thought why not it will be fun.I still have fun with it you get to look like someone else for awhile its art as well I've always loved drawing etc.

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